Joe's Story
(A Guy, Four
Girls and a Parachute)
Dropping
out of an airplane seemed like a really good idea when I was
in college. But at that point in my life I was still mixing
kamikazes in a spaghetti pot. As the years passed, I lost
my desire to plummet.
I'm not really sure what happened but somewhere along the
way, I developed a fear of falling (although I continue to
enjoy altitude when it's divorced from the threat of imminent
terrestrial impact). What once seemed like the ultimate thrill
ride instead made me sick to my stomach. So it took a considerable
amount of mental readjustment to finally end up in the open
doorway of a King Air B90 at 13,000 feet.
I initially agreed to join the group of co-worker daredevils
because I assumed a scheme of this magnitude would never get
off the ground, so to speak. When it was still in the office-chatter
phase, there appeared to be no good reason not to sign on
for the excursion, but when Kristy eventually announced that
she'd made reservations for the jump, I began to panic. So
when the first attempted trip fell victim to bad weather,
I was actually relieved.
By the time the jump was rescheduled, Gwen and Kristy had
taken other jobs, which was sad of course, but ultimately
advantageous in that they could no longer physically coerce
me to participate. Nevertheless I had resolved to conquer
my ugly fears and recapture the devil-may-care spirit that
I once owned as a youth. (Also, there was the matter of chickening
out in front of four girls.)
I
will always remember September 16th. From the time we assembled
before sunrise, there was a surreal quality about the entire
experience. It was a beautiful day in Salisbury, Maryland,
and when we arrived at the drop zone, we quickly began the
rituals of waiver signing and watching instructional video.
Once the process had been put in motion, it would have taken
a conspicuous and embarrassing effort to withdraw. There were
about 15 or 20 people there who were skydiving for the first
time and no one seemed particularly nervous about dropping
a couple miles out of the sky. The group dynamic was definitely
helpful in calming the nerves: I had expected to get queasy
but the nausea never arrived. Interestingly, among the first-timers,
there was only one other jumper of my gender, and his girlfriend
had taken him skydiving as a surprise birthday present. The
predominantly female group cast a certain aura of invincibility
and I knew I would survive the day.
Skydiving is every bit as exhilarating as I had heard. The
freefall was incredible, even though I remember thinking that
if the parachute didn't open soon, I might freeze to death
from the 120 mph wind. When it finally did open, my affable
tandem instructor Chuck informed me that a malfunction had
nearly forced us to deploy the reserve chute. To this day,
I'm not sure if he was pulling my leg. (Chuck was a bit of
an asshole.) And finally, the descent under the canopy provided
a breathtaking view, but at that point I was pretty anxious
to get Chuck off my back.
I never did figure out exactly where my fear of falling came
from or how I got over it. There's nothing particularly profound
about discovering that the passage of time brings with it
an awareness of mortality, so I'll forego any further pseudo-psychological
conclusions. Suffice it to say that I'm thrilled to have been
a part of this adventure, but I never would have done it alone,
so thanks Kristy and Beth and Gwen and Darcy for taking me
along for the ride!
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